Right...so another update....

Im kinda stressing over my uni applications...i want to know now but ive got to wait...its so frustrating, lol trust me to be impatient right??...ah well...i will find out eventually...until then i will keep checking my emails regualarily every hour =]

Things with my boyfriend are still amazing =] im beyond happy with him xD

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Why Does It Rain Rain Rain Down On Utopia??




I'll promise you one thing,
I don't intend to let you down
I don't need to know whom you've been with,
'cause I know I'll love you better than him.
I'd armor you heart if you'd just let me in.



It's been said,
that the pen is mightier than the sword.
And closures' my weapon of choice.
So beware, of the miles that lie between.
Sincerely,
From Jersey.




Is it someone else's responsibility to pick you up?
Stop dreaming. Start being.



It's about time to set the record straight.
Clear the air, forget all that you heard.
Turn deaf ears to words that they all say.
I'll show you all you ought to know.



If you choose to sever the ties,
refuse to swallow their lines.
If it's not right for you,
you've got the right to move on.



I'd kiss you now, but I fear my caustic tongue
Would only serve to salt your wounds



Home's where the heart is, and you've got mine.
So I'll be home when you come back.



I've made up my mind, and this is it.
I've decided to call it quits.
I guess that'll get by, unhappily ever after.
All we've been through means no more to you.
I never thought letting go would be so hard to do.
Forget about me, so what will make you see the saddest part
is that throught it all you remained happy.



When was the last time you,
you laughed so hard you cried?
Don't let these days fly by,
because you can't turn back time,
how hard you try.



I know you're sorry,
but I don't know if that means more than just goodbye.
Tell me the same old story.
Faking a smile, truth can't hide behind your eyes.



remember that life is short.
so be careful who you waste it with.



I’ll show you mine if you show me yours first.
Let’s compare scars, I’ll tell you whose is worse.
Let’s unwrite these pages, and replace them with our own words.
We’ll live on front porches and swing life away;
we’ll get by just fine here on minimum wage.
If love is a labor, I’ll slave until the end.



"The way I see it, if we couldn't laugh,
we would all go insane."
[[ Jimmy Buffett ]]



"I like living.
I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly,
acutely miserable, racked with sorrow,
but through it all I still know quite certainly that
just to be alive is a grand thing."
[[ Agatha Christie ]]



"if you are going to doubt something, doubt your limits."
[[Don Ward]]



mind is everything. What we think we become



Humankind cannot gain anything,
without first giving something in return.
To obtain, something of equal value must be lost.
[[Full Metal Alchemist]]



We met for coffee and a cigarette
and talked about how the feeling we get
when we hear a certain song hits the spot
and puts us in a world that's not realy anymore.



That night, I realized how very different we are.
You're so resigned to what life has given you,
so accepting of all the misery and pain.
You don't even think about it,
you just take the hits without questions.
I can't decide if you're wise or simply ridiculous.



I want to run with reckless emotion.
I want to find out if love really is the size of the ocean.
And even if I crash and burn,
at least i'll know what it feels like to be alive.



Let's run away to a place where the air tastes like rain
and the sun shines like Sunday morning.
You bring your laugh and I'll bring my sense of humor,
and we can waste the days, one week after another.



There's no promise of safety
With these secondhand wings
But I'm willing to find out
What impossible means.



My theory is if you look confident
you can pull off anything. Even if you
have no clue what your doing.



I`ve found that it`s a good thing to go through heartache
at one point or another in your lifetime.
Not the petty, childhood heartache.
But the horrible kind we`ve experienced. B
ut see, when you get to the healing part of this,
you will have so much love to share with someone.
You will be able to appreciate someone in ways
even you cannot understand.
You will be so much stronger than you were before.
I know how much this sucks right now & I know it seems unfair,
but when it`s all said & done with,
this will all make sense.
All this pain you are going through at this moment
will eventually teach you some of the greatest lessons in life
you will ever need to learn.



I make mistakes;
That's what I do.
I speak without thinking.
I act without knowing.
I drink so much that I can barely walk
I'm a fantastic lover & an amazing friend.
God knows I mean well.



A heart that craves gets lost in everything,
and a heart that heeds finds hope in anything.



It took me a long time not to judge myself
through someone else's eyes.



If you search your heart and listen to its instructions,
you’ll end up where you belong.


I believe that two people are connected at the heart
and it doesn't matter what you do,
or who you are, or where you live;
there are no boundaries or barriers.
If two people are destined to be together,
they will be.



I can't explain this feeling for you, but I guess I can try.
It's like I've waited for this one thing my whole life,
and its suddenly right in front of me.
I know you sometimes doubt how you feel for me,
and sometimes I doubt how I feel for you,
but then there are times, stupid times,
like when we're posing for a picture,
or I'm sitting in your car,
or when we're walking together and we brush against each other,
and I know without a question you're feeling the same way I am.
And those moments, however few or far between,
make everything we go through worth it.
What can I say? Somewhere in these past months,
I've fallen in love.



"Ever since that day,
there hasn't been one second..
that i wasnt thinking about you"



I love how your eyes close whenever you kiss me.
& when you`re away from me, I love how you miss me.
I love the way you always treat me tenderly.
But most of all, I love the way that you love me.
I love how your heart beats whenever I hold you.
I love how you think of me without being told to.
I love the way your touch is always heavenly.
But most of all, I love how you love me.



So she said, "That's okay
As long as you can make a promise
Not to break my little heart
Or leave me all alone in the summer."



Go on,
grab your hat and fetch a camera.
Go on, film the world before it happens.



The sun was always in her eyes
She didn't even see me
But that girl had so much love
she'd wanna kiss you all the time
Yeah, she'd wanna kiss you all the time



It's the greatest thing that's yet to have happened
Imagine knowing me
It's the greatest thing you'd ever imagine
But you'll never know until you're there


The ink is running toward the page
It's chasin' off the days
Look back at boat feet
And that winding knee
I missed your skin when you were east
You clicked your heels and wished for me



Take a chance, take your shoes off, dance in the rain
And I was flashing around and the news spread all over town
I'm not complaining that it's raining, I'm just saying that I like it a lot
More than you think, if the sun would come out and sing with me



Spark your heels
Up against the picket fence I built
All your wishes they will sink like stones
Slowly down a lonely well



Never grow old. Never die. Never know fear again



True love is night jasmine, a diamond in darkness,
the heartbeat no cardiologist has ever heard.
It is the most common of miracles,
fashioned of fleecy clouds,
a handful of stars tossed into the night sky.



but where there's a monster there's a miracle
[[ Odgen Nash ]]



Because everyone harbors a secret
hatred for the prettiest girl in the room.



I just want to see her smile again.
I just want her to know that I don't care about the scars.



Only if you feel such fullness can you really
understand the ache of being empty.



fershersurveys
1. Tire Swing - Kimya Dawson
2. Apologize - Silverstien
3. Revolution - The Beatles
4. Change Your Mind - The Killers
5. Just Dance - Lady Gaga
6. Your Love Is A Lie - Simple Plan
7. Icky Thump - The White Stripes
8. Fell On Black Days - Soundgarden
9. One More Time - Daft Punk
10. All Downhill From Here - New Found Glory
11. My Friend's Over You - New Found Glory
12. Starstruckk - 3OH!3
13. Crank Dat - I Set My Friends On Fire
14. Please Please Me - The Beatles
15. Of All The Gin Joints In All The World - Fall Out Boy
16. Swing Swing - All-American Rejects
17. Champagne Supernova - Oasis
18. Closer - Nine Inch Nails
19. Anyone Else But You - The Moldy Peaches
20. Touch, Peel, And Stand - Days Of The New
21. Check Yes, Juliet - We The Kings
22. Six Feet Under The Stars - All Time Low
23. Beautiful Girls - Bayside
24. Its Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Fucking Death Wish - My Chemical Romance
25. The Space Between - Dave Matthews Band
26. Across The Universe - The Beatles
27. When I Grow Up - Mayday Parade
28. Umbrella - Marie Digby
29. Hot N Cold - Katy Perry
30. Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner - Fall Out Boy
31. Fingerprints - Katy Perry
32. I Can't Wait Forever - Simple Plan
33. LoveGame - Lady Gaga
34. Indecisive - Julia Nunes
35. Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends - Fall Out Boy
36. I've Got A Dark Alley And A Bad Idea That Says You Should Shut Your Mouth (Summer Song) - Fall Out Boy
37. Can't Buy Me Love - The Beatles
38. Self Esteem - The Offspring
39. Wasting My Time - Default
40. Hide And Seek - Imogen Heap
41. Jump - Simple Plan
42. Sweet Emotion - Aerosmith
43. You've Got To Hide Your Love Away - The Beatles
44. All For You - Sister Hazel
45. See You Again - Breathe Carolina
46. Video Killed The Radio Star - Amber Pacific
47. My Paper Heart - All American Rejects
48. When I'm With You - Simple Plan
49. Broken - Seether
50. Remembering Sunday - All Time Low



100 songs on shuffle.
by: blacksunshine_surveys

1. Empires Erased- Born Of Osiris.
2. If It Means A Lot To You- A Day To Remember. <333
3. Machine Gun Funk- Notorious B.I.G.
4. See You Again- Breathe Carolina.
5. Lip Gloss And Black- Atreyu.
6. The Darkest Nights- As I Lay Dying.
7. Beautiful Tragedy- In This Moment.
8. Square Dance- Eminem.
9. Love- Strapping Young Lad.
10. 4 In The Morning- Gwen Stefani.
11. Duality- Slipknot.
12. Nemesis- Arch Enemy.
13. Muevete Y Perrea- Daddy Yankee.
14. Apology(acoustic)- Alesana.
15. Dragula- Rob Zombie.
16. Dull Boy- Mudvayne.
17. Boys Boys Boys- Lady Gaga.
18. Chased Through The Woods By A Rapist- Waking The Cadaver.
19. Halcyon- The Acacia Strain.
20. To All Things Expendable- My Bitter End.
21. Get Crunk- Brokencyde.
22. In A Photograph- Suicide Silence.
23. Nothing Says Party Like Her Head On A Stick- Killwhitneydead.
24. The Anthem- Pitbull.
25. Regurgitated Lullaby For The Born Dead- Beneath The Massacre.
26. Judge The Blood- God Forbid.
27. Kings Of The Carnival Creation- Dimmu Borgir.
28. Best I Ever Had- Drake.
29. Possession- Whitechapel.
30. I Don't Give A Fuck- Lil Jon.
31. Have No Fear- In This Moment.
32. The Ending Is The Beginning- Suicide Silence.
33. Birthday Sex (techno remix)- DJ Fellin vs. Jeremih.
34. I'm Just One Girl I Can't Fuck The Whole World- Killwhitneydead.
35. Colt 45- Afroman.
36. Schizophrenia- Brokencyde.
37. Floods- Pantera.
38. It Ain't Gonna Suck Itself- Killwhitneydead.
39. I Love College (remix)- Asher Roth featuring Chamillionaire.
40. Bat Country- Avenged Sevenfold.
41. Nymphetamine- Cradle Of Filth.
42. Cut Dem Off- Ricky Blaze.
43. Never Tear Us Apart- INXS.
44. Dead Memories- Slipknot.
45. Mockingbird- Eminem.
46. Georgia- Ludacris.
47. Knock You Down- Keri Hilson featuring Kanye West.
48. Dead Eyes See No Future- Arch Enemy.
49. Operate- Peaches.
50. My President Is Black- Young Jeezy.
51. Shake- Pitbull featuring Ying Yang Twins.
52. Don't Fear The Reaper- Blue Oyster Cult.
53. Immigrant Song- Led Zeppelin.
54. Hellbent- Knights Of The Abyss.
55. She Got Her Own (Miss Independent remix)- Neyo featuring Jamie Foxx.
56. Whatever You Like- T.I.
57. Noche De Sexo- Wisin Y Yandel.
58. Gossip Folks- Missy Elliott.
59. Cowboys From Hell- Pantera.
60. Juicy- Notorious B.I.G.
61. Thomas The Tank Engine- Oceano.
62. I Know You Want Me- Pitbull.
63. Make Her Say (Poke Her Face)- Kid Cudi featuring Kanye West.
64. Hands Of A Killer- Suicide Silence. <3
65. The Fallen- Suicide Silence.
66. Fireman- Lil Wayne.
67. The Downfall Of Us All- A Day To Remember. <3
68. Tales From The Burg- Emmure.
69. Abstract Art- Born Of Osiris.
70. Disturbia- Rihanna.
71. Baby Cause I'm A Thug- Trick Daddy.
72. Self Esteem- The Offspring.
73. Money- Pink Floyd.
74. The Black Out- Ligeia.
75. Waking Up In Vegas- Katy Perry.
76. Crazy- Snoop Dogg featuring Nate Dogg.
77. Changes- Tupac.
78. Fucking On The Dance Floor- Dirty Sanchez.
79. Destruction- Deathstars.
80. Spit- Kittie.
81. Sugar- Flo Rida.
82. Waterfalls- TLC.
83. The Impaler- Winds Of Plague.
84. Fire It Up- Black Label Society.
85. Day N Nite- Kid Cudi.
86. Superstar- Lupe Fiasco.
87. Conceited- Remy Martin.
88. Waking The Demon- Bullet For My Valentine.
89. Composure- August Burns Red. <333
90. Forever- Chris Brown.
91. Gutted-We Came With Broken Teeth.
92. Blame It- Jamie Foxx featuring T-Pain.
93. Take The Lead- Bone Thugs N Harmony featuring Wisin Y Yandel.
94. Hold Me Closer Tony Danza- Killwhitneydead.
95. Sour Girl- Stone Temple Pilots.
96. Beautiful, Dirty, Rich- Lady Gaga.
97. The Brighter Side Of Suffering- As Blood Runs Black.
98. Stunting Like My Daddy- Lil Wayne.
99. Pretty Fly-The Offspring.
100. Chicago's Finest- Emmure.



1. Spiders make me want to throw up.
2. My hair is down right now.
3. I'm wearing a blue shirt.
4. I get jealous very easily.
5. I'm trying to get over someone right now.
6. My house is brick.
7. I love horror movies.
8. I like to wear sunglasses.
9. Flip-flops are the shoes that I wear the majority of the time.
10. Napoleon Dynamite isn't really funny anymore.
11. I live in a big tourist trap.
12. My crush has met one or both of my parents.
13. I want a pug.
14. I have seen the movie 'Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby.'
15. I cry very easily.
16. I like hoodies.
17. I listen to Hellogoodbye.
18. I know what I want to name my children.
19. My crush or boyfriend has amazing blue eyes.
20. I think I sing pretty well.
21. I'm good at math.
22. I have failed a class before.
23. I need a haircut.
24. I am an upcoming junior.
25. I only have one best friend.
26. I like spicy foods.
27. I cry when I watch Titanic.
28. I believe that I have been truly in love before.
29. Bad grammar pisses me off.
30. I'd like to travel to Europe someday.
31. I love the ocean.
32. I really need a job.
33. Today is Thursday.
34. I'm looking forward to the upcoming school year.
35. I was a Girl Scout when I was younger.
36. I'm much more outgoing than I used to be.
37. I'm stubborn.
38. I have taken Chemistry.
39. I actually like Paris Hilton.
40. I'm not very photogenic.
41. I miss someone very much.
42. I don't like apples.
43. I have three or more pets.
44. My friends and I do crazy things together.
45. Fall Out Boy is my favorite band.
46. My computer is new.
47. My hair is naturally straight
48. I'm insecure.
49. There are parental controls on my computer.
50. I liked this survey.



SONG 1: Memory - Catz
What comes to mind when you hear this song? musicals & year 7
Rate the singers looks out of 10? 9
What year was it released? no clue

SONG 2: I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus - Christmas [[omg what is with my music?]]
Best instrument in the song? the guitar??
Third line? She didnt see me creep
Genre? Xmas music

SONG 3: Desperate Times - Killswitch Engage [[GOING TO SEE THEM LIVEE!!!]]
Would it be good live? should be =]
What's the name of the album? As Daylight Dies
Last word: me =]

SONG 4: On To The Next One - Escape The Fate
Spell it without vowels: n t th nxt n
Write the opposite of each word in the title: Off From The Last One??
What sort of event would you play this song at? no cluee??

SONG 5: Running Away - Three Days Grace
Is this song heavy or soft? more heavy than soft =]
Have you seen the artist live? sadly no
How many times have you played this? 7

SONG 6: Skater Boy - Avril Lavigne [oh my!]
Is it a well known artist? yes
How many songs do you have by them? 10?
How long does it go for? 3:07

SONG 7: Heilig - Tokio Hotel [[<3]]
Remind you of anything? My BF, Nigeria, the past
How would you dance to this? only a slow dance
Did you buy it or download it? downloaded it i think

SONG 8: from yesterday - 30 seconds to mars
Name the song something different: The Message
Does it use a riff or a chord progression? most likely??
Rate the album out of 10: 8

SONG 9: Noises - You Me At Six.
How did you learn about this song? Kerrang & Word Of MOUth.
Are there any meaning to the lyrics? well yes.
Describe the video: i havent seen it.

SONG 10: Boten Ana - Basshunter [[oh my[[
Seen any dvds of the artists? nope
Favourite song by them? this or Dota
Any explicit lyrics? none

SONG 11: Closure - Chevella.
What would your best friend think of you listening to this song? she wouldnt mind
Your mum? wont care
Favourite line? Closure has come to me?

SONG 12: Whisper - Evanescence.
It comes on the radio, what do you do? sing along
Favourite part of the song? the melodyy
Mood it puts you in? mellowww

SONG 13: Red Sam - Flyleaf
Does it suit the number 13? sure?
What would you say to the artist if they were here right now? love your music =].
When would you listen to this song? whenever

Song 14:a lack of colour - Death Cab For Cutie
If you could listen to one more song, would it be this? probably not.
What artist should cover it? no clue
What do you think of when you hear the name of it? grey

Song 15: You Owe Me An IOU - HOt HOt Heat
Best part? the upbeatness??
Best lyric? no clue??
Worst lyric? no clue

SONG 16: The Quiet - We The Kings.
How many times could you listen to it without getting sick of it? 10??
Spell the artist backwards: sgnik eht ew
How much would you pay to see it live? 20

SONG 17: Addicted - Saving Abel
First word? I'm
Last word? you
Put both in a sentence: I'm addicted to you

Song 18: The War Is Ours ( The Guillotine Part 2) - Escape The Fate
Make you think about? idk
Remind you of any friends? not really
What genre best defines the artist? rock.

SONG 19: If It Kills Me - Jason Mraz
Buy or down load? buy
What's one thing that could be improved? idk
What decade was the artist in their prime at? now??

SONG 20: Brick By Boring Brick - Paramore
What part of the song stands out? chorus
How much do you love the artist? loads
Has anyone in the band died? no

Did you enjoy this survey? sure.



i'm wearing a hoodie right now.
i read my parents' old college textbooks.
i have a special bookmark.
spoken word poetry is amazing.
i make lists when doing homework.
i've been to chicago.
and it was seriously amazing.
i get hand-me-downs from people a lot.
i like to drink fiji water.
i prefer self-teaching to teachers.
i keep all my cds in a cd case.
about 1 in 100 xangas are actually interesting.
i love to alphabetize things.
my myspace profile has the default layout.
the only genre i cannot stand is country.
i love really weird music videos.
i like to read fairy tales and children's poetry.
my eyes are different colors in different lighting.
it's grammar, not grammer.
i was awake at midnight last night.
i haven't hung out with my friends a lot this summer.
i own something related to sharks.
i used to take dance classes.
my nail polish is always chipped.
bob dylan makes me want to dance.
i like talking to random strangers.
i've listened to the aquabats.
i overanalyze things.
i have a tape player in my house.
i like to look at old photographs.
i wish i could go to more gigs.
msn smilies are so ridiculous.
aim smilies are pretty stupid, too.
i rarely ever swear.
i don't have a cell phone.
i have a big art folder on my computer.
i've eaten nutella on bread.
and it was delicious.
i like to hop fences.
i have stuff i need to upload to deviantart.
my taste in music used to be so bad.
i love to daydream.
i hate being compared to other people.
there's a globe in my house.
my windows are closed right now.




&& Im Done
xxx

Only Surveys Today...

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bolding #o6 | by gumballmachines
if you agree, bold it.

» twenty things i love:
o1. laying the grass
o2. walking places
o3. indie rock
o4. looking back at old yearbooks
o5. inside jokes
o6. grape koolaid
o7. thunderstorms
o8. hockey
o9. blasting the radio in the car
10. fishing
11. comic books
12. sour skittles
13. road trips
14. outdoor concerts
15. politics
16. random facebook groups
17. flipflops
18. a breeze on a hot day
19. iced tea
20. team dinners

» twenty things i hate:
o1. math homework
o2. waking up late
o3. no hot water for a shower
o4. humidity
o5. when itunes doesn't work
o6. tons of chores to do
o7. noisy pets
o8. wet jeans
o9. first hour on a monday
10. label snobs
11. the smell of burning hair
12. people who brag
13. religious freaks
14. twilight
15. sore throats
16. migranes
17. last minute plans
18. nothing to wear
19. sloppy joes
20. fast food

» twenty bands i love:
o1. alice in chains
o2. the smashing pumpkins
o3. death cab for cutie
o4. pink floyd
o5. radiohead
o6. queen
o7. oasis
o8. the beatles
o9. rush
10. the who
11. kimya dawson
12. nine inch nails
13. paramore
14. daft punk
15. muse
16. led zeppelin
17. katy perry
18. mgmt
19. kanye west
20. journey

» twenty movies i love:
o1. girl, interrupted
o2. superbad
o3. across the universe
o4. marley and me
o5. the nightmare before christmas
o6. the wizard of oz
o7. freedom writers
o8. the dark knight
o9. rent
10. 27 dresses
11. pineapple express
12. a clockwork orange
13. milk
14. the breakfast club
15. juno
16. psycho
17. the godfather
18. tommy
19. accepted
20. gran torino

» twenty tv shows i love:
o1. project runway
o2. jeopardy!
o3. america's next top model
o4. house md
o5. supernatural
o6. hell's kitchen
o7. heroes
o8. gossip girl
o9. intervention
10. south park
11. the office
12. scrubs
13. important things w/ demetri martin
14. family guy
15. saturday night live
16. the colbert report
17. 30 rock
18. spongebob squarepants
19. that metal show
20. mythbusters

» twenty books i love:
o1. animal farm
o2. interview with the vampire
o3. speak
o4. i am america (and so can you!)
o5. perks of being a wallflower
o6. lolita
o7. pride and prejudice
o8. lord of the flies
o9. the little prince
10. 1984
11. american psycho
12. the tale of two cities
13. watchmen
14. dune
15. hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy
16. lotr: fellowship of the ring
17. go ask alice
18. a great and terrible beauty
19. on a pale horse
20. the invisible man

» twenty more things i love:
o1. flowery perfume
o2. a good magazine
o3. sleeping in
o4. playing basketball
o5. a new pair of shoes
o6. peanut butter
o7. opening night movies
o8. stickers
o9. postsecret
10. cool substitue teachers
11. ripped jeans
12. big sunglasses
13. tanning
14. frisbee at the beach
15. wakeboarding
16. cookouts
17. windchimes
18. grandma's cooking
19. vanilla ice cream cones
20. sharpies

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Here's how this one works. This is the top 20 list of the Major, Unsigned, and Indie bands on myspace from June 12. Go through your iTunes library and record how many songs you have from each artist!
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[MAJOR]
1) Akon : 17
2) Eminem : 7
3) Lady GaGa : 6
4) Beyonce  : 2
5) Hinder : 11
6) Taylor Swift : 31
7) Soulja Boy : 6
8) Keri Wilson : 0
9) T.I. : 1
10) Lil Wayne : 11
11) Miley Cyrus : 0
12) Kings of Leon : 8
13) Jonas Brothers : 1
14) Kanye West : 1
15) Black Eyed Peas : 1
16) Keyshia Cole : 0
17) Pink : 31
18) Plies : 0
19) Rihanna  : 13
20) Katy Perry : 1

[UNSIGNED]
1) NeverShoutNever! : 0
2) Pitbull : 2
3) Jordan Taylor: 0
4) Arcangle : 0
5) Owl City : 1
6) Mary Magdalan : 0
7) Crossfade : 0
8) Cypress Hill : 0
9) Luke Bryan : 0
10) Crystal Castles : 0
11) Motley Crue : 0
12) Ingrid Michaleson : 0
13) Daft Punk : 1
14) Jimmy Eat World : 15
15) Enter Shikari : 30
16) LL Cool J : 0
17) Benny Benassi : 0
18) Tiesto : 0
19) Jon Young : 0
20) Drama : 0

[INDIE]
1) Paramore : 23
2) Pleasure P : 0
3) 3OH!3: 13
4) Oasis : 1
5) A Day To Remember: 0
6) KiD CuDi b.k.a the MAN on the MOON : 0
7) Sublime : 4
8) Slipknot: 1
9) The Devil Wears Prada : 0
10) Seether : 23
11) BuckCherry : 0
12) Christina Millian : 1
13) All Time Low : 16
14) Kate Voegle : 0
15) Killswitch Engage : 23
16) Jason Aldean : 0
17) The Used : 41
18) Mayday Parade : 2
19) Rehab : 1
20) BrokeNcyde : 37

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1. Are you wearing braces?
no

2. What kind of cell phone do you have?
lg xenon

3. What color is your purse/wallet?
silvery greyish

4. What is your body's best feature?
no clue

5. Do you hug teachers often?
not since i was tiny no

6. What is your birthday?
the event which celebrates my birth?? but if you are asking when it is, july 21

7. What is your favorite name for a girl?
Adrianna

8. For a boy?
Nathaniel =]

9. What is your favorite movie?
depends, atm Rocky Horror or Memoirs of a Geisha

10. What color shirt are you wearing right now?
umm a white tank with a red & black jumper thingy

11. Who is your favorite celebrity?
Bill Kaulitz??

12. Look back at #10. Did you have to look to see what color shirt you were wearing?
nope

13. What is your favorite subject in school?
bio?

14. What is your favorite teacher's name? (last only, or initials)
hmmm....idk GAH? NJS??

15. What is your dream career?
doctor

16. Do you like to volunteer?
lots

17. Are you active in a church/youth group?
kinda yh

18. What is your favorite number?
7, 3, 21,13

19. What is your favourite fruit?
Lychee?? Banana?? idk

20. What is your favorite store?
no clue, hot topic?

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1. If you had to live somewhere else in the country you already live in, where would you go?
ummm.... gloucester?

2. Have you ever watched MuchMusic?
??

3. When does school start for you?
umm september 8th i think it was??

4. Do you still buy CDs?
bought one yday =]

5. Did you collect Beanie Babies, or buy them to play with?
both i think

6. Do you have any family in the Military?
nope

7. Can you talk to your Mother about most things?
no

8. Would you ever home school your children?
no

9. I totally got this from another survey, but can you name all eight kids from Jon & Kate Plus 8?
pardon?

10. Have you heard anything by Dallas Green?
no sadly

11. What are you more worried about: the troops, or global warming?
global warming

12. Have you gotten your G1 (or the American equivalent) yet?
G1?!?!?1 huhh

13. What Provinces/States have you been in?
texas, california, florida, atlanta, louisiana

14. Are you afraid of change?
terrified

15. Do you have any plans this week?
yes

16. How did you get hooked on surveys?
xanga

17. Does your Dad barbeque a lot?
yes

18. Does it annoy you when people actually think that Canadians live in igloos and whatnot?
makes me laugh more

19. Have you been to the Capital of your country?
yes

20. I apologize if you're actually taking this, it's terrible. Anyway, what's the capital of your province/state?
pardon?? well gloucester is the capital of glouceatershire

21. Is alcohol a common thing in your family?
idk maybe?

22. Do you use your cell phone on a regular basis?
yes

23. Did you have a computer when you were young?
yes

24. Do people need to stop trying to act hardcore with the keyboard?
pardon?

25. What malls do you visit most often?
cribbs causeway

26. Do you ever take the Public Transit?
often

27. Are you dreading Winter?
only the cold

28. Did the Summer fly by?
defineately

29. Have you lived in a big city?
yes

30. Whats your status on Facebook or Myspace?
ummm * checks*  "Trinity Axelson is now looking forward to sunday even more..."

31. Do any of your childhood friends live in other parts of the Country?
all of them infact excluding joshy

32. Where did you grow up?
reading, staines, philipines, long beach, nigeria, gloucestershire =]

33. Have you ever moved away from a place and then moved back?
yes

34. Within your own Country, what landmarks have you seen?
most of them??

35. Do you know who lives at 24 Sussex Drive?
pardon?

36. What is the drinking age in your State/Province?
18

37. How many videos have you watched on YouTube?
way too many =]

38. Who's your favourite character from one of your favourite books?
*thinks* no clue

39. What are some of your interests?
music, anime, fb, friends, etc

40. Can you name all the Great Lakes?
erie, superior, i cant remember the rest

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Is your hair up?
ish

Do you still talk to your first love?
-

Do you think you are an argumentative person?
not really tbh

Is your phone right beside you?
yup

Will this weekend be a good one?
so far not in the slightest, but im hopeing it will al be made up for tomorrow =]

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
i dont think so

Have you ever had a difficult relationship?
yes

Ever driven into the ghetto to buy drugs?
no

Can you read other people's expressions?
yes

Have you ever hugged someone named Joe?
most likely

When was the last time something bothered you?
today

What bothered you?
my dad's actions...

Are your ears gauged?
no.

Do you miss someone?
yes

How did you feel when you woke up today?
terrible

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
not too long after i got off the phone =]

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yes

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
lol idk my dad most likely or the woman

Are you happy right now?
no

What's in your pocket?
nothing

When is your birthday?
july 21

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
ummm the jumper thing was from urban outfitters, the undershirt i stole from becca =]

what color are your eyes?
hazely brownish

How tall are you?
5'6"

Are you a forgiving person?
yes

When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
no sadly

What does the last text message say in your inbox and who is it from?
emily: "Hey hw r u? Bough ake ingrediants 2day. will bake  2moz so they r fresh! frm em"

Who was the last person you hugged?
mummy

How about kissed?
chris

Did anything weird happen today?
many things

What are you listening to?
the We Will Rock You soundtrack, at the moment, "Who Wants To Live Forever" =D <3!!!

Your number one tells you they're pregnant, you say?
BECCCA!!!!!!!!! s**t! ahh f**k...what are you going to do love?

If you could change your eye color would you?
green

What is the biggest secret you know about your 2nd top friend?
oh my...umm that would be...idk?! lol no clue

Last person who you told a secret to?
chris?

When was the last time you cried?
today

Last phone call received?
chris

What are you wearing on your feet?
pop socks

What was the last movie you watched in theaters?
(500) daqys of summer

What were you doing today?
lots

How did you wake up this morning?
phone

Do you believe everything you hear?
no

What did you do last night?
we will rock you && yo sushi.

So...Ive Done All Of Nothing Today...Well I Have Completely Reorganized My Drawers =]...I Have A Play Read Thru At 7.30, Im Really Excited =]

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You think that you know me
But I don't even know myself.



" so dad, how's the new house? bet it's nice with no kids aroiund.
mom's busy, she's been working late since your check never came.
i'm glad for the raise and the move south.
cause i'd rather spend your money than spend my time with you"



I'm not good at future planning. I don't plan at all.
I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow.
I don't have a day planner and I don’t have a diary.
I completely live in the now, not in the past, not in the future."
[[ heath ledger ]]




I really can't deny it. I am who I am.
I'm pretty normal. I'm not that smooth
type of girl. I run into things. I trip. I spill
food. I say stupid things. I really don't
have it all together.



I’ve been running around for the past year
with absolutely no direction.
I didn't know what I wanted.
All I knew was that you were always there,
always in my head, always under my skin.



What makes it so hard
to let go of a crush?
It's the fear that once we
let go they'll finally catch on.



"Immature" is just a word used by people
that don't know how to have fun.
So be crazy, laugh hysterically,
and be with the people who
make you smile.
Smile so much your cheeks hurt.



The timeless in you is aware of life’s timelessness;
and knows that yesterday is but today’s memory and tomorrow is today’s dream.
[[Kahlil Gibran]]



Be daring, be different, be impractical,
be anything that will assert the integrity or purpose and imaginative vision
against the play-it-safers, the creatures of the common place, the slaves of the ordinary.
[[Cecil Beaton]]



I need some sleep, it can't go on like this.
I tried counting sheep, but there's one I always miss. 
I had a ten minute dream in the passenger's seat,
while the world was flying by.
You haven't been gone very long, but it feels like a life time.



In life, we do things. Some, we wish we had never done,
and some we wish we could replay a million times,
but they make us who we are and, in the end, they shape and detail us.
If we were to reserve them, we wouldn't be the person we are today.
So, just live. Make mistakes and have wonderful memories.
But, never second guess who you are, where you've been
and, most importantly, where you're going



The unreal is more powerful than
the real, because nothing is as
perfect as you can imagine it,
because its only intangible ideas,
concepts, beliefs, fantasies that
last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots.
People, well, they die. But things
as fragile as a thought, a dream,
a legend, they can go on and on."
[[ Chuck Palahniuk ]]



trust me, i know how it feels.
i know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you.
i know what it's like to wait for everyone to be asleep
  so you can just fall apart,
for everything to hurt so bad you're ready to let it all end.
trust me. i know exactly how it feels.



when people can walk away from you, let them walk.
don't try to talk another person into staying with you,
loving you, calling you, caring for you, coming to see you, or staying attached to you.
when people can walk away, let them walk.
your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.



We wonder why black & white photos capture our soul.
I think it's cause without color,
we aren't drawn to the makeup, & the color of our eyes,
or our hair, or how tan our skin is.
Black & white captures the innocence on ones face
& the hurt they've gone through to feel vulnerability.
The glow we see comes from the inside.
Brightening our eyes, our skin, & our smile.
It grabs the truth that liberates us.



Maybe there's a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
[[Jeff Buckley]]



Forbidden to Remember,
Terrified to Forget.
It was a hard line to walk.
[[New Moon]]



Everybody likes to go their own way-
-to choose their own time and manner of devotion.
[[Jane Austen, Mansfield Park]]



"Time passes. Even when it seems impossible.
Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse behind a bruise.
It passes unevenly, in strange lurches,
in dragging lulls, but pass it does. even for me."
[[Bella Swan-New Moon-Stephenie Meyer]]

 

We are the music makers,
and we are the dreamers of the dream
[[Willy Wonka]]



I thought about just going somewhere,
the place that takes me far from here.
i kept looking for that place in the sky.
i just want to say goodbye.


[[ ^^ credit trinny_911 ^^]]

"And if i could swim,
id swim out to you in the ocean,
swim out to where you were floating.
in the dark."
[[Say Anything]]



We tend to fall in love the same way we get sick;
without wanting to, without believing it,
against our will and unable to defend ourselves.
And then we lose love exactly the same way.



[[ ^^ credit trinny_911 ^^ ]]

"We find a place for what we lose.
Although we know that after such
a loss the acute stage of mourning
will subside, we also know that a
part of us shall remain inconsolable
and never find a substitute. No
matter what may fill the gap, even
if it is completely filled, it will
nevertheless remain something
changed forever..."
[[Sigmund Freud]]



sometimes you need to step outside,
clear your head and remind yourself of
who you are and where you want to be.
 And sometimes you have venture outside
your world in order to find yourself.



Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling
[[velvet revolver]]



You don't expect these things to happen.
No one asks to be alone.
Some just get used to it.
Some pretend to be used to it.
And others are a walking work of destruction.



Your heart is a grave to be perfectly honest
Your mouth's a smoking gun
And you smile while you're twisting the knife in my stomach
Until everything is gone
Take all you can from me
I've got weak constitution
I'm led so easily
[[+44]]



All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?



However did you manage to push away
From every living thing you come across?
So afraid that anyone will hate you
You pretend you hate them first
But where will you go?
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape the truth
I realize you're afraid
But you can't refrain from everything, mm
You can't escape
You can't escape
I'm so sick of speaking words
That no one understands
Is it clear enough that
You can't live you whole life all alone?
I can hear you when you whisper
But you can't even hear me screaming
[[evanescence]]



above all else, guard your heart,
for it affects everything you do.
[[proverbs 4:23]]



I woke up short of breath, but I've still got a long day ahead of me
I don't know what day it is but tell me 'cuz I gotta know who to be
Is this me up in the mirror? 'Cuz I thought it was somebody else
Well it's a realization, when you find out you don't even wanna look at yourself



Memories sharp as daggers
Pierce into the flesh of today
The suicide of love took away all that matters
And buried the remains in an unmarked grave in your heart
[[HIM]]



Im dying a little more each day
Soon there will be nothing left
Im not better
No matter how well i trick others into believing otherwise it doesn't matter
I need to be better
Pretending im better doesn't make it so
Making others think im better doesn't make it so
I just don't know how to make it so



&& Im Done =]

[[half an hour!!]]

xxx